Hmm..read that special blog..i finally knew wazz wrong.

I don't know how to say it out nor express it out. But i try to.
I had many sweet meomories with you-in my mind.
I could never forget the days we spent together.
Even though our time together may be short,
but it does'nt matter.
It will last.
How long I do not know, but i strongly believe it will be longer than anyone else thinks.

You don't blame urself,
it's never ur fault.
Don't always be sad =) you're my life.
Ya down, i'm down.

I don't know wat to say anymore. Could'nt express it out? Don't know why.

We maybe still young and do not know wat will happen in the future. But let's leave it till that time and be wat we are now. Life is short, make it the best of it.No matter, let's live life together to the fullest. Enjoy each other's companys and cherish. I don't wish to lose you nor to let you go away with someone else. You are solely mine. People may think i'm selfish but I don't care. Other things can give away but defintely not you. Let's get this power of love on and on never ending..till the last mins...the last breathe of love..Ur exsistence brought me alive. I love you- Eunice Lai Shu Yi[the one and only you.]

Hen Hen di ai. Gan gan di qu ai.
Ni shi wo wei yi de zui ai.
Wo ke yi bu yao xu duo dong xi,
Ke shi bu nen mei you ni de ai.

The happy moments we had together.

People often say that they are so crazy in love. I finally know how crazy love can be. Couples often say that their partner is the one that make their life beautiful...Right now..i mus say that..it is true. I was'nt jus making casual remarks. It was right from the bottom of my heart. Family and friends makes my life worth living. And you and basketball makes my life complete. Others who saw this might don't find a thing about it. But i mus say..u will feel it once u are deeply in love.

I could'nt ask for much anymore. Ya almost always there for me..and forgiving eh..? You always turn up the bball matches i had..giving me support.. Hehe..ni zai wo xing zhong chen wei le yi fen zhi liao..? Hahaha..Well..xiao i wrote this for you de wor.

I hope that it can last..but such thing is hard to say. All is up to us. If we are strong enough..to go through it..if we manage to..it is a bliss..if not..i could'nt imagine it. Hai..no matter...you occupied my world. I love you..

Todae so shuang..!!! Coz my bdae~ woooOooo..!!! Wake up early in the morning went for bball training. Got match vs combine sec sch. Hmm..did'nt know todae was the official opening ceremony of the BAS court. Wait so long for that damn guest-of-honour. Lol..B4 that was damn shuang. Get converse shoes and t-shirt and jersey. I GOT 7!!! woo!!! Thought can get 10. But never mind lar. 7 also not bad. Wah..so happy..then during match so so lor. Play a bit.Haix..then went for the training. Then coach and me buay song each other. Hai..but fuck heck care lar. =x

Then..take cab chiong home and go out again. Celebrate my bdae with xiao. Yeah~!!! =p Todae damn siao jiu dui le. Go her hse..lol!!!Watch malay show. Ahahahax...damn funny. Then [the eye 10] 3pm showed on PS. Take cab chiong. Chiong there ask ym..buy for us. End up..seperate seats. Sian ji buan..lol..~ Then went to bugis..also don't have..then go to CS. Ahaahhaha..then got!!! Wah..then hurry like siao. Lol..!!! very ka chiong. DAmn funny. Xiao ran into the cinema somemore without me giving the tickets.LOl...!!! YOu ar..!!! Hahaha..xia su lin. Then the show was quite scary lar. Lol...very nice also. =p enjoy the movie lots! After movie go eat billy bombers. From there i ki siao till si bei siao..!!! Hahahahaha!!! bth..Take some disgustin pics..!

Then send xiao home. Hai..could'nt bear eh..? Then rush here and there and come back home...

Hai...fucking bored! Wake up so early..mum ask me to go buy breakfast to get change. Wth..can't u do it urself..so fucked up. Come back finish breakfast chiong hw. Thought can go out if i finish. Finally i chiong finish. Tok to mum..keep naggin at me. Going out so often. hai..ok fine..don't go out lor. Cb..u happpy..?

Thought could go to the class outing a while. Fucking hell..i wanna go lor. Cb..fuck that lar. Don't go out so often. no money. i go out everytime use my own money lor. Cb..now make me cannot buy wat i wanna buy. Fucker..bitch. Everytime compare me with bro. That's already the past lor. Wat u wannna..? Nowadays kids all want freedom lor.

I don't wanna expect much freedom from you. I jus need somemore. A bit more will do. I jus don't understand a single shit about you. You wan me to study hard..get good grades. This CA..i chiong my life over it. So hiong..so tough..wat i wanna do is to acheive good grades..to please you and me. And maybe also hope to get some rewards from that. to me, i felt that i did very very well in it. But u did'nt even say i did well but in fact say it was'nt good enough. HOW CAN U EXPECT SO MUCH FROM ME?I HAD TRIED MY BEST..!!! I DID ALL I CAN. AND YOU COME AND TOLD ME THAT I DID'NT DO VERY WELL-JUST AVERAGE..! I got so much As..first time in my sec sch. I was so delighted..and u put cold blanket over me. I was not happy bout it but fucking discouraged.

Other pple's mum like my friends...i think none of them can do so well as me! U heard that..but their mum still buy things for them as rewards..let them go out with friends. WAt bout you?! YOU YOU YOU?! I DID'NT EXPECT U TO GIVE ME REWARDS I JUS WAN SOME FREEDOM FROM MY HARD WORK. I thought my hard work had paid off. But i was jus dreaming. Again, after the test..u urge me to study again. I really could'nt take it. All my friends are out there having so much fucking fun and i'm down here fucking suffering..STUDY. Everytime when i go out..u will be fucking unhappy. Say i spend money. Ok fine..i am guilty about it. But i jus wanna do something to make my life happy. LIFE IS SHORT..DO WAT U WANNA DO. IF NOT ONE DAE IMAGINE I MET SOME FUCKING ACCIDENT..I'M DEAD. I WILL REGRET MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD FUCKING LIFE.

right iin my mind..rather can't help thinking about my fucked up life..i can't think of anything. I jus really fuck up too much..i could'nt stand it.

All my hardwork jus would'nt work. I REGRET...

hmm..todae get back SS paper. Sian ji buan. Fail..=( Sux sia!!! Hai.fail by one mark. Knn..!!! but overall manage to pass. jus pass. borderline. Hai..then after sch..tio bdae bash from my basketball brothers. hahahax..!! Humtum till so siao. neh neh.

Todae P.E bth sia. Play soccer..kick the ball too hard fly out of the field onto the road. Lol..twice..wth..=x then that stupid jeanette. Tmdi! you girl leh..wah lao..don't stand in my way lar..i wanna ram also cannot ram...see u char bor. Then i bth i ram tio ur toot. Wah piang..fuck sia. Bth..if u are reading this..next time don't defend k? =x i don't wanna be in a dilemma. then was all the way sleeping after PE lesson.

Went home le..go out again. Go simei with my basketball friends. makan sakae. xiao also go..wEeee..reach le..sakae bo buffet. Sian ji buan go eat Han River. Bth..have so much fun there. REally great fun. But mus diam diam.cannot say out. Lol..!!!

After eating..was more fun =x

24th march..!!! Wee..wo ai ni! WO AI SHUI PING >.<

Hmm..todae got back overall results. Was'nt pleased with me. =( e-maths and english one more mark to As. Wtf..! Could'nt stand it. So suay!!! Haix..then A-maths A2. I know some may think i wat lar..but i know it is quite good le. But still can be better mah. Then like very ke xi.

Then went for training. Play match with those grads. Had a nice match though. But was spoilt when my leg got cramped. Wth..Damn sia~!!! Wanna play lor..tell coach i wanna contiune but wan me to rest. =( I havent enjoy enough lor!!! $%$#%@#$%@#% Haix..heard that sat gettin national jerseys le. Wish that i could get no.10 Pray hard. Then got friendly match also. Vs combine sec sch. Siao liao..Gone case.

"COACH...TRUST ME. LET ME PLAY MORE. I WILL NOT LET THE TEAM DOWN. I AM TAKING IT SERIOUSLY. JUS GIVE ME THAT GOLDEN OPPOTURNITY TO SHOW YOU WAT I CAN DO! I REALLY HOPE SO. I WAN NOTHING MUCH JUS WANNA PROVE YOU WRONG AND TO SHOW YOU THAT EVEN WITHOUT RECOMMENDATION I CAN GET INTO THIS TEAM. I'M GONNA MAKE MYSELF WORTH IT!"

Give me that chance...

Wah..todae get back results. Hmm..some did quite bad some was average.

Combine Sci[[physics]] - 23/25~ Woo!!!
[[chemistry]] - 14.5/25 ~ Sux...=(
A-maths - 30/40 ~ Hai hao bah..
Combine humanites[[Geog]] - 12/20 ~ Ok ok
E-maths - 27/40 ~ Ok ok also

Think that's all..todae also very sian lor. Come home and rot. Hai..play ps2 play com..all play lar..but jus so sian..after tat went to orh orh. Then never go mit xiao. Hahaha..pai seh ar~ =x Then wake up le..eat dinner and study again. Mid-year seems so near. I'm not sure i'm stressing myself but i guess i better start cracking soon and out fun aside liao. =( mus chiong my chem. I gonna make it at least an "A"..!! I have to!!! Hmm..nothin to write liao. Hope tml my bio can get at least b3 or A le..pray hard..!!! Bio is very important to me. =p Hmm..

Hmm..todae quite shuang bah. Went out with cousin eat seoul garden. Eat till damn hiong..three plates of meats..chiong finish..then eat prawns. Hahahahax..After tat go bugis. Hahahax..then go sim lim. Hai..saw a lot of mp3. Wanna buy creative muvoN200!!!! That's damn cool. To me lar..got more cool de. But more cool more ex. Hehe..then bring xiao and cousin go walk past little india. Hahahax..damn a lot of Indian. Sia su lin.

After tat take 65 went home~ On the bus keep playing. Lol...bth..!! Xiao..keep @#$!%!@#$@# nothing to say liao lor. Ying liao. After eat long john..about to go interchange..tell xiao something she zoom! Bu Jian liao~ Hahahaha..

Hmm...yd read ur blog then know how much u hate me b4 we are friends. Lol...Well, this is for you, hao peng you..=)

Let's get it started bah. Well, yeah in sec 1 and 2 i was damn hot-tempered. I don't know why. I jus kip scolding pple doing silly mistakes and when i did them, i jus keep quiet and u guys did'nt scold me. Hmm..i could'nt control my temper at that time. During the C boys tournament, it was really fun and hurtin to me. Fun was that, we manage to came out playin some good games with the opponents. Sad thing was..we were out. I could'nt accept it at the first place. I simply felt that we are the better team. We should deserve it..! We sweat bloods in our training..We suffer so much and during those tough trainings i really feel like giving it up. I could'nt hold on. But we have to be as a team. We train up ourselves and challenge the pple out there. I thought we could won something but it was jus a dream. Haix..thinkin about the last match we had together..i was really sad. It was partly my fault to get fouled out. I was so so so sorry for the team. Haix..in case u guys did'nt know...when i get out from the match..i sob beside guo wei.. =( i jus felt that i could'nt help the team anymore when they need me the most..? After that match, we got a debrief..everyone was sobbing. Including me and coach..who was tryin to control his tears. I see a better future next year which is this year 2005

2005, we got a new squad in fact the strongest squad i guess. We train hard hired new coach to train us up. We improve trememdously i mus say. during the tournament, we were so unfortunate to get into the groups with ngee ann and cch Main. But i don't give a fuck about those teams. I still believe we can do it. But we lost..and we were out again. Many pple may find our team useless, hopeless. But i don't think so. We went through many hardships together..train alot..Hai..Next year will be our last year. I hope you guys will cooperate and train together. And i really really hope to achieve something next year even though it may be hard as we lost some of the key players. But basketball is not indivual but team. Hmm, anyway hope i can stop been solo bah..? I'm gettin solo nowadays.. Hmm..that's all dube! Way to go. Whooosh!

Hmm..todae wake up in the living room. Sian~ Could'nt slp last nite..? Why..? Neh..secret. Lol..!! Wake up..do hw..after that play ps2. Lol...then Xiao wanan challegene me wor..! See who reach control station first. Kuku de...u mus know who is ur opponent first mah. Me leh~ Hahahahax..!!! Aiya..win till siao. RoFl...

Went to PS...watch boogeyman..[[did i spell correctly???]] the show very lame lor. Wah piang..! kan lai kan qu all about closet. Got one part open close the closet..transform to another place. Wah..so good if i can like that i also wan liao. Lol...!!! Hmm, but the sound effect was damn scary. Neh neh..i kia tio. =x but one part nia lar. Lol...then during the movie movie..go play play..lol..play too much..the movie heck ji buan. =x The funniest was..HAHAHAHAHA..!!! Cannot tahan. Three couples sit one row..Hug..!!! RoFl..bth..so so erm..don't know how to say. Lol..!!!

After that go walk walk...Hmm, have some great fun bah. Hahahax..todae..was a nice day..~ WeeEeE..

Hai..whole dae at home!!! So boring..!! Wake up at 1. Saw xiao's msg. So dulan. Hai..ke lian le. Kenna pang seh don't like what sia. Hmm, lax lax. Hmm, whole dae at home do hw hw hw hw. Do that stupid chinese compo do till can vomit blood ar..!!! Haix..feel like going out but no one pei. Sian..arGh~ can't stand it. Don't know wat to do. but tml shuang also lar. No national training. Shuang lo..no need see the sickening gay coach face..! Rather go bro's club and train better. Definitely better. Wonder what ya doing now. Hmm, enjoying urself or wat..? Hmm..afternoon really sux big time.

Argh..!!! Jus woke up. Very tired. Had a long training dae..Hmm, todae is short.

Hmm..camp is finally over!!! Oh man..those facilitators ar..all so "fantastic" that i was speechless by their "nice" remarks. I do not have to describe much as one word can describe their outstanding model for us - "fuck". This twin brothers all forever using this word till i get so sick of it. And i can never forget how Gabriel get fucked upside down by one of the brothers.

"Fuck you! What the fuck are you doing?" oh my god..sounds nice..?

And his fucking brother..is totally an ass! Stop and stop and stop. Come on lar...YOU TIRED TELL US. WE WILL BE UNDERSTANDING AND GIVE U AMPLE TIME TO SCRATCH UR DICK AND REST A WHILE. No need find excuses like the groups not walking together or wat bullshit. Somemore go flirt with two girls. Knn...then make xiao change place till she dulan..tmd..! Go and die..

Tired ar..lazy to go on. Lol...!!! This camp can say sux and rox?

Hmm..todae so bu shuangx..Haix..wake up early in the morning..~ So tired!!! Then wah..chiong for national matcg..Running late. Lol...then hmm, the match was not fun at all. Hai..did'nt play much so dulan the coach. So biased lor. Hai..so regretted joining u-15. It jus sux...the players are all right is the bloody coach. Knn..!!! Think i from one unknown sch...don't wanna put me. Put unity players lar..put go on and put..those lousy players also putt. Go on lar..1 dae if i become a better player i will never forget u this "good" coach..!!! U sucker! Jus watch out. In the near future u shall get it.

After the fuck up match went to tamp millelium[[don't know how to spell]] court see dmn match. They so heng..no need play dao..straight away in semi-final. Rofl..then mit xiao. Hmm, then actually wanan go liao..suddenly tan call me to play. -.-''' but also shuang lar. Then the opponents so fuck. Anyhow push pple. knn..make my best friend knock onto the pole. Asshole..then dulan xia lan back..=x Then nearly blow up lor..then tan and guowei outside shout me to calm down. Then relax relax a bit..but shuang lar...shoot shoot nearly score..~ WEeEe...but then solo. Ahahahax..pai seh ar team. =x but most shuang is xia lan those assES`....

After that play one more match then go with xiao liao. Hai..sian bio a while nia. =( actually go watch Scary movie..but don't have. SAd se..Ahahahx..Hmm, so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm..todae so tired in the morning..going 12 le still slping. Ahahahax..Then suddenly wake up coz like so late le..see hp. Saw xiao msgs..=p then faster wake up le. Lol..tok tok a while then go help mum do something and play ps2. After that go out lo~ Go bowling..weEeE~ Then hmm..reach there first with hy. Then sian lor. Gooseberry le..coz his "curry"[[kari]] reach le. Then sian half..But also suan lar. Di siao them. Wahahahax..after that xiao come..bin chao chao =x scary.

Then bowl bowl lo~ Hahahax..si bei malu..!!! First three.or should i say first four..i miss all 0~ So cool! LoL....but slowly ok ok le..hahahax. in the end 75..weEeEe~ HenG even get a strike [X]. Wahahahax..then got a strike again. Ahahahax..at first play so malu..keep going drain. Hahahax..then second round. Much better less balls going the drain. Lol...then LEE YAN DE. TMD!!! SHOOT SHOOT LAR..THE BALL GO INTO MY LANE WASTE ONE OF MY CHANCE!!!knn!!!!! Si bei funny!!! Second try i go drain. Hahahahahaax..!! Play two games le..then go makan. Then go beach.

Yeah, beach so shuang!!! Go play maze~ Ahahahax..xiao see giant lizard ar? Hahahahax..then the maze so easy de. Lol..~ Then play play around ar. Hahahahax..After that got pick seashells. pick those cute cute and unique one. So shuuang..then take pics of them and write some words. Hahahaha.. so nice!!! hahax...







Nice eh..? HeHe..then walk home from pasir ris park to tamp~ Then she go home~ Sian a fun day has jus passed~` Walk past [W][W][W] then miss those were the days..=( Hope we can go together another day bah..HeHE...so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xiao..love ya!!! Lol...~

wOoOo...todae finally common test end le!!! So happy that i pass my E-maths although not very good ar. 27. But to me, not bad le..but got room for improvement~ Hmm, then A-maths and Chinese went quite smoothly. Chinese got some difficulties nia. Hmm, after that go walk walk with xiao. Hahahahax..make u laugh like mad. Ahahahahax..say so much craps. Did u see how lame can i be le mah? Hahahax..my true colour~ After that go home touch-up IPW. In the end still hand up the lousy one. Bo bian..no time.After that go soccer match. Hahahahax..so shuang xiao got go.!!! Aura~

During the soccer match sian le..So many chances teammates CMI..aiya cannot blame them. Me also not up to standard. Miss some great chanecs also..Sorry guys. Me tried my best liao. Can't help you all at least get 1 goal. After match go makan..then home~

[[xiao]] thank you wor. Everytime turn up for any of my matches or wat. Hehe...really appreciate it. =p

Hai..stupid newspaper. So lame waste my time only. Rather use the time go and slp or do other things. Tmd..sit in front of com edit here and there till mind go haywire. Then mum also lo soh lar. Talk and talk and talk. Repeat for so many times and i heard it long ago. So can u pls stop repeatin ur craps..? I have enough and i know wat to do. I'm not a 3 years old kid anymore. Hmm, tml got soccer match 3D vs 3F. LoL..confirm lose one. Lalalalala, so sian. Hai..xiao sorry go scold so much vulgurs. Hmm, go zhiwei hse plan fail le. Sian ji buan. All thanks to that "WELL-KNOWN" SHAO FENG. ..l.. Me wanna form one 'Lao Feng' liao lar..

WoOoO..todae seems so shuang. Going everything smoothly. Jus take heartache to see her sick till go home. =( Todae hmm, study study Sharifah never come. SoNG~!!!! Then a-maths then geog. Study study..then take back geog test. WooOOOo..chao shuang. Get full marks!!! YeAH~ finally...but nothin to hao lian about the test so easy. Then get back test paper nia..saw xiao take back walk along my corridor. Wah sian..bro come home =`( cannot update liao. Lol...sEe ya. Hmm, xiao get well soon wor. Lol...heart shattered into fragments liao. LoL..~

A stupid game jus blow it off. Play the whole dae and she's neglected. Hai, don't know wat to say other then 'sorry'. Hmm, not sure how u feel. But i am sure the feeling is damn $#%#%$#%$# I jus so addicted to it. Hai, seems like don't wanna play tat game anymore. Hmm, feelin ultra guilty. =x so bored le..still did'nt entertain you and go entertain myself. Should have cheer ya up for ur bad morning. Hmm...totally regret playing that game. Hai..so sorry =( Hope u ok with me ar..? Lol..know u sort of ok bah..but me jus feeling fuckin guilty..hai..~

Wah, todae schooling.. Shuang! HmmM, bio bio..do practical. Ahahahax..song sia. Then spill the idione tio me pants. -.-''' suay siao. After bio, PE!!!! Muahahaha..then wah super heng ar~ Never late. First time. =x PE, do PT...sian ji buan. Then eat snake a bit. Ahahahax..After PT go play soccer. Ahahax..so scared like last time. Whack the ball too hard...the keeper suay suay tio. End up injure mus go home. LoL..!!! But end up heck care. Jus play. Then Sow Wee keeper!!! Wahahaha..Me whack him till he stomach pain and hand pain. Wahahahaha..si bei song. Then score hat-trick. Coz solo. =x Pai seh ar..pity clarence..keep askin me to pass but i hungry for goals. =x Sorry ar clarence. LoL..!!! Then play play play..till late for chinese. Hahahaha..go for chinese lesson. The Zheng lao shi...bin chao chao. Muahahaha..then heck ar. Got spelling. HmMM...not bad lar. But will not get full marks. Sian..since first spelling till now havent get full b4. Ko lian Dai. Hmm, after recess not bad. E-maths go Lab 1 study. Then Cheng period. Heng still not sian. Jus that bu shuang him suddenly give whole class. Spring test. Knn..! sian ji bua. Afte sch...rain rain~ Stay in sch look after sec 1. So shuang..they wana go toilet all say.."senior can go toilet?" Hahaha..tat feelling so song.. =) Hmm..then find teachers sign the form form. Hmm..aiya..after that some tai Ji happen. Don't wanan say. Come home explain to mum. Then do hw. Then go bbt shop buy waffle~ makan makan come back study again..till now..hMmM...

Hmm...todae Cheng's lesson suck like hell..! Keep askin to flip pages. Tmd..!!! So frustrated. Hai, todae schoolin jus sux lar. After sch go do CIP. Pei one ahpei one whole dae. Ahahahax..so shuang. =x Then go training. Hai..so sian. Like wad..go training no motive de. Hahahahax..Hmm, then play match. Finally..long time never play match. SAd to see me solo again. -.-''' Damn..! Train till so late. Sian si. sis wanna use com. Knn..all out of a sudden.. fuck man... ..l..

Todae so sleepy~!!! Wake up late..heng, Xiao call me. If not i think i late for sch le. Coz slp till so shuang. Then hmm, schoolin sama sama. Quite boring Quite nice. After sch go play bball..!!! wOOOo...!!! So shuang. Play till like jus finish bathing. Hahahaax..then so er xin. Faster go to that small building behind strip..dry up. Hahahax..=x Hmm, then go find yd. See him do detention. In the end, play true or dare. Ahahahahax..Do those lame stuff. Hmm, di siao jennifer also very fun!!! =p Hmm, after that makan makan...do homework. Go home!!! Hmm, reach home si bei tired. Straight away slp. Ahahahax..WAke up eat shark fin.Muahahahaha..Then do hw. Do source based. Do till brain burst!!! Haix...could'nt get rid of that terrible nightmare!!! =( super bu shuang with someone. Knn...EVerytime say this and that about about her. Go and die lar. U very perfect meh. Don't anyhow say pple lar. Tmd...because you are somebody i don't wanna pick a quarrel lor. asshole. Say she act act..like u not like that. Petty ass. Have enough lor. Know ur limits lar. Knn. Insult insult...nnb lar. I'm not sure u are kidding anot but u are jus over ur limit. I did'nt tok back..does'nt mean u can go on and on and on. Jus know ur limits! Put urself in other pple shoes lar. Others tok behind ur back u like is it..? Next time can u pls jus stfu in front of me and stop insulting her. I'm gonna lose grip sooner or later. That's simply too much. FUn? I don't think this is fuckin fun..but rather fuckin irritaing.